I have not been posting a lot. And that while I was pretty determined to get back into the swing of things. The reason for this is that something took me out of the swing of things and into a special zone. The zone that is called: pregnancy!
Yes, I am proud to announce that my husband and I are expecting our second child. Pregnancy was not that easy on my body the first time. And it isn't now. Towards the end of the second month exhaustion is the word of the day, accompagnied by occasional nausea and great big hormonal rushes that make me cry at the drop of a hat.
Besides that, I will admit here I am scared. I know that many people have two childre, that two is probably the most common number of children even and that there is no reason to think I can't handle it. However, I almost could not handle Joseph's first year. Lack of sleep turned me into a shrew. And while I like being a mommy now, Joseph still has ten times more energy than the average todler. For the longest time I hoped that this was just a phase, but I am by now accepting that he just has a high voltage personality. That he will always be an energizer bunny boy. Accepting that is one thing, contemplating how to make that work with a newborn and perhaps again no sleep for seven months is another.
So, I am asking for prayers. That I might be a good mother to my two children, a good wife to my wonderful husband, and a good servant of my God.